Monday, September 19, 2016

On Safari through Uncertainty

Life is Hard. 
There's even an entire movement driven by this statement. It is hard. 
However, it is also joyful and radiant. 
The goal I know is to find the joy in the midst of sorrow. Let's, change that saying ! How about finding joy through he midst of uncertainty. It's not easy. 
In fact it would be a whole lot easier to check out, give up, lay down and sleep even. That's what I've wanted to do. Just disappear. Maybe in a way I have.
I am not participating in things I used to, I am not answering every phone call, every request, I am not. I have decided that it may just be better to get through the day. 

At first I thought this was a bad thing...... Society tells us not to check out. Don't draw inward, don't turn people away. What if this method is ok too. What if taking a moment to be quiet, to stand still, to reflect is the best way for you? I have found this to be true for me. I need quiet. I didn't used to but I do now. I need peace. The peace of floating around in my pool looking up at the sky and calming my heart. 
I NEED it! 
Sometimes every day. 

Our life is noisy, hard, uncertain and heartbreaking at times. I wonder often how I make it through he day. 

Then, I hear a still small voice say 
"I've Got This!"
It's my Lord ! 
Reassuring me that no matter what He's in charge. No matter how hard I want to be in charge I am NOT. He has proven that time and time again. Yesterday through prayerful friends, a meal from another friend, a huge hug from another. 
He's got this! 
All of it!

So I will sit here today in anticipation of watching how He's going to show up. Will our prayers be answered how we want. I hope so but if not He's still here. That is a reality I know a lot of people do not want to face. 
I am realist.

Do you need reassurance? I'm hugging you from here. I'm praying for your needs and I'm sitting quiet in my pool looking up at the sky. 

I'm going to have to learn how to live along side it.